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RE: you
De: AmorothElendil(
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Enviado: viernes, 07 de diciembre de 2007 17:04:57
Para:
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You were faster. I wanted to write to you something like that. But i will answer your email first.
I know what you have to do. I accepted that and i keeped silence about my wishes. Anyway, i will continue keeping silence about what i would like with you. I am not allowed to say that. I am nobody to say that. Maybe you love me, but you also love him. That´s true. And i accepted that. I am nobody for destroying your life. So i won´t dare to say anything about this.
I want your happiness and i arrived to your life too late. I really wanted to meet you before... maybe 2 and half years before... but too late.
I repeat: i am nobody to tell you what i need since i met you. Because you know and i don´t dare. You´re too good for me and you are doing right.
So go ahead with him. I am sure that he´s a good man and he will take care of you so much. I know you want to marry with him.
You´re not too weak. It´s your culture. I don´t wish you are spanish or latin woman. Maybe that kind of women could do crazy things like that because our society has much less pression over people... that´s all... i don´t expect you do what i want.
I know how difficult is everything for you, specially for your family... i am only happy to know that i showed you another way to enjoy life. I am so proud to know that you were really happy beside me.
Now i want to talk about me: my situation here is also not easy... but in another way. Very different that yours. I am a free soul and i chosen to live in Asia by myself. I am at 10000 km from my home. I have not family and real friends here. Most part of the days i wake up alone and i go sleep alone. Sometimes i met any girl and i sleep with her. But i always leave them. I cannot find a good one to really love and i have to hide a deep sadness behind a steel heart. Some of my girlfriends maybe are looking for something serious with me, but... i think i never won´t find a good girl in this country. Hard to explain if you had never been here... but it´s true...
Anyway, you can love me so much... but you can live without me. You have your family... and him. I have nothing. So i accept that. I accept that you don´t need me and i accept my own weakness... so... being true (the same you were with me telling that you are engaged)... if you stop contacting me, i will start meeting other girls again... at least only for not sleeping alone. You told me that maybe i wasn´t able to understand your situation. Maybe i don´t understand some things. This is because i don´t expect you understand my situation too.
Anyway, i know that our love is true. But if you really want to stop contact with me, i will dissappear. Don´t worry about me and go ahead...
And i could never hate you. I only can love you forever from my loneliness.
Thanks for all the things you gave me,
Amroth
good morning
De:
[email protected]
Enviado: viernes, 07 de diciembre de 2007 22:48:20
Para:
[email protected]
Amroth, I AM SO PROUD TO BE WITH YOU.
I know all the girls(maybe especially in Taipei)wants to be with you.One of my friend who was living in China for 3 years,told me...Europian guys(sometimes Japanese too) never have a problem to just find a girl,you know...
I was sad to hear that situation like this,at the same time,I could take courage to decide.
we can be good friends,& we can keep get in touch untill we die.
Because I love you.
I dont care you would be old someday in the future ,maybe 30,40years later...I want to love you forver as a man.
I never forget you & please never forget me.my mind cannot be changed easily,because we love each other too much,so let's take our time to prepare,to be friends.
I dont care if you are going to sleep with any other girls.
Because it is true,you thought im beautiful while we're making love,& so do I.
it is more than enough for me.
It means we made love for thousand times,I think.
yes,we should meet 3 years before...
anyway my LOVE for you won't NEVER change.
I know you & me are best couple.
I recommend a serious girl like me(^o^)/
I cant stop writing to you,im such a una chica mala,But you are free from our relationship,I hope.
I dont know how to say,but...I cant stop having contact with you.
I really love you,your charactor,serious side & funny side,your smell,your perfect face & body ! Everything about you makes me crazy.
A los 5 minutos me escribe este otro e-mail toda loca:
i love you
De:
[email protected]
Enviado: viernes, 07 de diciembre de 2007 22:59:55
Para: AMORoth
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i dont want to let you go.But i have to.
you know i am Gemini.maybe i can have two side of my life.But I want to be faithful for you.I promise I will never lie to you.
I love you.I am waiting for your mail.
I need you now.
like crazy i want to love you & be loved by YOU...
I am waiting for your mail.that's all i want now...
Entonces me hinchan un poco los cojoncillos toreros y, aunque un poco contenido por la diferencia cultural, le contesto lo siguiente:
RE: good morning
De: AmORoth Elendil(
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Enviado: sábado, 08 de diciembre de 2007 2:33:45
Para:
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Haha... ok, but Taiwan is not China. Taiwan is a free country and China is not a free country. European and japanese can meet girls in China easily because Europe & Japan = MONEY €€€$$$$... Nothing is most important than money in China, so i think for those men that is better meeting prostitutes and expent some cash 1 night than marry with a girl that will take out all your money all your life. Althought you can find also that kind of girls in Taiwan and everywhere in the world, they never approach to me, because i don´t look like an old business man, hahah... the problem in Taiwan is more about culture anyway...
I understood you first email email answering me... but after the second... i dont know what you want.
I will be a little spanish and direct for this time: if you love so much your boyfriend to marry with him, that should be enough in your life. Is him good enough for you? I dont ask about socially or spiritually... i mean: do you feel SATISFIED with him? I don´t care if he is very good or not. If you don´t feel SATISFIED he´s good for others, not for YOU. If the answer is yes... WHY do you need me? If not... why do you want to marry with him? Responsability? Convenience? Affraid to be an old single woman? More mature and stable love? I know all that... and i know you´re being selfish and greedy with us... but i don´t care, because i´m crazy for you.
Maybe you should ask so many things to any of your japanese girlfriends having relationship or marriage with gaijin. I know this is a problem too. But consider that in the 21st century, althought you are traditional japanese, you can decide so many things in your life.
I think if you betrayed him is for a very good reason. So dont think that only you betrayed him. Forget the etiquette, the convenient ways of life and think very carefully about that. Are you thinking about marrying with him and having a secret relationship with me because you don´t feel completelly happy with him and without me? So (i´m sorry to say this) i think something is not working in your relationship with him and you shouldn´t marry... that´s all.
Sorry again if i was too direct. This is also a point of my personality that maybe you won´t like... but i feel you´re a little bit confused. So let me know what´s the problem...
About me, i know very clear that i love you,
Amroth