Freestate rebuznó:
Dios santo,es que de tan bizarro me cuesta hacerme la idea de la escena.Estas como una chota !!!! juas.2 cosas,una pillate un seguro medico,que por aqui te hemos cogido cariñin con tus historias y no queremos que te hagan pupa y enrollate y ya que ha salido el tema cuenta algo de tus andanzas marciales.
Unas pinceladas de otros temas no están mal, pero este no es el foro indicado para hablar de eso.
Por cierto,al final no contaste nada de tu ultimo affair con tamami supongo que es tema sensible XDDD.
Cuando llegué a casa, leí sus 2 emails. Como no sabía qué contestar, volví a hablar por chat con Ryoko, su mejor amiga. Le hice un montón de preguntas y me sorprendió que no tuviera problemas en contestarme con todo tipo de detalles.
Me hizo gracia que me contara que Tamami de más joven era un poco marimacho y que hacía cosas "de chicos" en su época del instituto. Es decir: emborracharse y quedarse dormida en la calle, empastillarse en las discos, etc, etc. Eso ya sabemos que en España es lo más normal del mundo entre adolescentes de ambos sexos... pero en Japón no tanto. Bueno... ahora que un amigo me ha dicho que en Hokkaido (isla del norte de Japón) la marihuana está legalizada, ya no sé qué pensar...
En fin, básicamente su amiga me dio a entender que por lo que hablan entre ellas, sí que está enamorada de mí, pero al mismo tiempo también ama a su marido. Su amiga me dice que ella no entiende cómo se puede querer a 2 hombres al mismo tiempo... y que lo de casarse ahora tiene más que ver con contentar a su estricta madre que otra cosa. También le pregunté qué clase de gente era su familia, si estaban zumbados o su madre era como la de Carrie o algo así. Me dijo que no, que conoce a su familia muy bien y son unos buenos padres. Sólo su madre es un poco estricta por protección. Por otra parte, el padre ya puede ser todo lo buenazo que quieras, pero Tamami me dijo una vez que si la hubiera visto con su ex-novio africano o conmigo o con un extranjero, se iba a montar la tercera guerra mundial en su casa.
Una vez Tamami me contó el significado de los kanjis de su nombre y me dijo que significaban algo así como "tesoro". Vamos, que su madre la tiene como "mi tesshhooroooooo".
Mejor pongo los mails en vez de enrollarme tanto:
I am not good at speaking ...so
De:
[email protected]
Enviado: martes, 03 de junio de 2008 15:44:41
Para: Amroth
[email protected]
You told me that you don't have pc to check internet...So I guess you'll read this mail at the airport or Taipei.
...well,I am really happy now because I could give up loving you.
haha
I could start loving my family.It is really good to me.
I didn't tell you but we took trip to Hawaii for honeymoon from 26th-31th of may.
I was so silly to ask my husband if I could go back to Tokyo after honeymoon because you told me you would come to Japan.I thought we can meet in Tokyo.
It was the1st of May.
But I felt so misery for myself.
I thought I am so stupid,greedy,ugly bitch.
I always thought I can never be happy,and there is no meaning to live.
Now I started to love my man beside me...and I feel pleasure to live my life everyday.
I want to tell you how I was feeling:
I always care about my husband's foot finger not to touch unconsiously...you know it's habit while I was sleeping beside you in April.
I decided that I will never forget you.Whatever you say,you are my hero.
I never forget feeling touch of your rips,but I give you up.Because you are not mine absolutely.
you know me so deeply more than I think,I realized that.
I'll write to you tomorrow.
I feel sleepy now.
Oyasumi
hi
De:
[email protected]
Enviado: miércoles, 04 de junio de 2008 5:06:31
Para: Amroth
[email protected]
Either you have a gf or not,sooner or later,I had to give up your love,but I ignored the reality.
I have some friend (like an ex-bf)(and Japanese)to count on and they give me really good advices,but I never felt such love like you gave me.I was living in a tiny small strange(for you:) world,so I never expected that spanish cool guy understand me so deeply and give a mature love.
You are so so so amazing.
I decided that I never send e-mail or letter or chat on skype except when you want me to do so.
I just want to make you comfortable,relaxed and happy.
Because I don't want to stop adore you.
I think I never know the true meaning of love between man and woman.
I did care for you sometimes but I think that I "pritended"to care for you to make only me comfortable.And made you angry at last...
I am writing to you on Shinkansen line and soon the train will pass Shizuoka station,and I can't stop thinking about when we made love so many times.
Why you don't come to me and kidnap to the place noone knows:D haha.
Just kidding.
You'll never believe me but I tried to run to you so many times after marriage.
But I couldn't.
Please make laugh at me,I am such a weak,silly loser:D haha...
But I'll never let you go!I'm such a greedy girl,you know .I'll try to make my friend and beg you not to hate me !I'll cry "please!please!please!"until you turned to me:D Be careful,you know I am crazy.
It is half joke but half serious...
I want to be close to you even if as a friend...
You may think I am strange.But I really hope so...
I'll write to you if you write to me back...
see you soon
yours
Tama
Y esta es mi respuesta:
RE: hi
De: Amoroth(Amroth
[email protected])
Enviado: miércoles, 04 de junio de 2008 16
06
Para:
[email protected]
Hi Tama,
I enjoyed your email so much, because now you are starting to show your face and calling the things by its name. It means that something new is happening in your life or inside you... and i guess that´s a good thing.
I only can answer your most interesting points one by one:
"Either you have a gf or not,sooner or later,I had to give up your love,but I ignored the reality."
You don´t need to find a excuse like "now i have gf" to "give up". We know you are a bad girl and your mind has no logic ;) so don´t try to look for reasons to make me feel better or for feeling yourself better.
"I decided that I never send e-mail or letter or chat on skype except when you want me to do so.
I just want to make you comfortable,relaxed and happy"
I am feeling always comfortable, relaxed and happy. In the other hand, you have to learn a lot about how to feel comfortable, relaxed and happy :) I hope although not with my help (because i am not there with you), but you will do right with that around your "strange" world ;)
"I think I never know the true meaning of love between man and woman.
> I did care for you sometimes but I think that I "pritended"to care for you to make only me comfortable.And made you angry at last..."
I know that, don´t worry. It´s just kinda stupid so much adoration, so much iloveyous, so much "you are the perfect man"... but at the end, you are beside another man.
"Why you don't come to me and kidnap to the place noone knows:D haha."
Because you are not ready for that. You have to know how to do what you want when you want in your life first. Secondly, being independent and no worry about working to survive. :D
"But I'll never let you go!I'm such a greedy girl,you know .I'll try to make my friend and beg you not to hate me !I'll cry "please!please!please!"until you turned to me:D Be careful,you know I am crazy.
>
> It is half joke but half serious..."
I know the sex with your husband is very bad, so i understand your reasons to keep me close to you, don´t worry. ;)
In the other hand, the sex with my gf is quite good. Otherwise i wouldn´t call her my gf. I always choose the people with who i want to be together and i always think that i deserve the best, not the most convenient or acceptable. Saying in a more japanese way: i don´t like 2nd cathegory things in my life.
With that i mean: i don´t need to meet you for having good sex. So talking about love... i win again, sorry. You are always looking to complete your life through collecting pieces here and there... your perfect japanese life, your wild spanish lover, the quiet, the crazy, the serious, the funny, the peaceful.... y just called you because i was missing you. But sometimes i think you want me beside you because something is lack in your life.
And I don´t think you are a silly loser, haha. Sometimes i just think that you are a sweet kid. And very smart one too.
Thanks for this email. It was nice,
Amroth